Forever Ridiculous her [ heaven n heLL ]

Monday, July 02, 2007

TO me.. i'm juz trying my best to finish everytin... i tin i'm too vex becuz of all those toopid damn stuffs.. watever it is.. u pple can dislike mi or mayb hate me.. watever..
i dun git a damn... seems like i'm a "bad per".. yes... i hav to...
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Sumtime pple sae it as easy as duno wat shit.. but how bout doing it..? I shall not use NEVER.. okie... nvm.. no one bother to...? fine.. if i had a choice agian.. i will change.. yes... CHANGE.. zZ...
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Why i'm alw e one who drag u all back.. BAck to main topic.. cant u all juz finish n go...? rather den wasting time there.. tok craps.. yes i noe sumtime we need sum break to tok all tis nonsense... but.. now is not e time.. i'm sick of tis man.. "cant complete ! cant complete !" tis shit keep appearing in my mind... i tin i'm gonna become psychotic.. or hav sum severe illness if tis carries on... DAmn.
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I'm trying to help by asking u all opinion & ideas... n u pple show mi those "not intersted" attitude or rather "wat's tis..?" expression to mi.. taking so long to ans my Q all tis... half chit chatting half tinking... seems like u dun even noe wat we r doing... OMg.. i get frustrated easily.. i noe becuz of my "attitude".. u pple may start to hav a neg image of me.. okie.. watever. I'm juz to sick. I tin i'll recover oli when all projects are over.. [ nothing is perfect. i noe. ]
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Psycho mi to tin positively.. yes.. or mayb can leave mi alone... =)
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THink of my future... wat i wan to work as... i stil cant decide... mind block..... i'm staring in e space... how...? why...? wat...? Sick.
Is up to mi if i wanna believe or not...
but e decision is stil mine..
I dun hav e confident to study well & get into watever Uni.. i tin i'll b wasting $$... ANyway i tin tat will be my dad's $$.. i cant afford my own... I wish i can pay my own sch fees.. rather den alw asking my dad for it... i wanna get bond so tat my dad no need pay for mi.. but nv did i noe tat i fail to... i'm reali upset. sob.
tis MAkes mi.. dun hav e "heart" to be nurse... so i duno wat to do... like i'm lost..
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Others told mi i dun hav to be a nurse after graduate.. ya.. i agree.. others sae ............
Mayb i get influenced by others' suggestions or sumtin easily... so now pple ask mi tis n tat.. i cant ans... i cant decide... i juz study for e sake of studying...? i'm so ........ Arww.. sickening.
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I love e time when i was in sec 4... but time fly so fast.. =(

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