haiZ~~~... sianz... i feel so sianz... i tin i'm tired.. i din slpt well tis few daes... uh......... no wonder i feel like i'm floating... tis morning... i din slpt well cuz of my bros !! argh............... alarm clock rings.. grandpa wakes my yanger bro up... all in one room ! & i suffer.. cuz i'm e last to wake up.. while i was trying to catch sum slp after being wake by them.. there e clock rings..... OMG... it's so irritating... i wan to hav my own room ! =x
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When no one is at home.. it is so peaceful.. though is lonely~.. zZ
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Suddenly hav a feeling of not doing anything.. juz rot lidat..
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Suppose to go eat yum cha 2dae.. but frenz like all sick.. so cancel it le.. Darling was disappointed.. cuz he cant get to eat buffet~~.... To mi... no differ.. cuz i dun realli like buffet... haa... so 2dae spent our time at amk... quite sianz de.. darling muz b tinking tat 2dae we had spent our dae so meaning-less-ly rite not~... if not 2dae he will work liaoz.. haa.. though i feel sianz... but still okie lah.. depend mah.. so.. went to buy his fishes~~~.. & plant home... & i was there yawning~... cuz... ya... haa..! & he dun seems to b yawning in e shop.. he juz yawn b4 & after entering e shop.... zZ... which mean at AMK he had been yawning all e way... i duno wat make him so sianz & tired.. LOL ! zZ... but i dun seems to b yawning all e way though i'm tired lehz..! hmmz.. so home at 7pm~..
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Tml.. is holidae.. i'll stay at home.. mayb to do wat i should do.. & not slack e whole dae.. sumtime realli dun hav e feeling to study... once again.. my illness is back~.. haiz.. i duno wat i should do ! I'm so lazy... brain dead... mind block.. everytin like shit ! i'm getting worst.. i duno how am i going to pass tis time... i do tin last min.. c how i'll survive... zZ....
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i need to learn to slp early..
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Eat more fruits as much as i can..
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EXERCISE..?! oh my.. haa... i try~...... oops.. =x
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I need power.. which is hardly given ever since .........
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Is it tat sumtin is trapping in my mind or sumtin.. i feel i'm worrying sumtin.. which i cant figure out y... Or am i tinking too much...? I feel so .. = l
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I"M ROTTING IN PROCESS... zZ...

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

Photos after watching e performance..
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should b e other way round.. e photos from e last is one we tad 1st.. haa.. stil gt sum photos tad wit darling de.. cannot make it de.. so din post up.. wahahah~... e smile so fake...! lalaala~... xD



From e pic.. seems like all e audience left liaoz... left us ! haA..



DArk.... Blurred...



We & Us !

Juan & mi.....!

mi, shu feng & juan..

- Shu feng performed..! veri nice... fly here & there.. hee... =)

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 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

Yester watch Blood diamond wit darling.. not bad lah e show.. dun sae mi duno e storyline.. i knew it.. juz wan to confirm oli.. haa..
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After tat.. evening went watch musical dance at NYP.. wit FJ, marcus & darling.. e dance was oli 1hr.. short rite.... ya.. i haven seen enough lehz... geez... so nice.. e dance... haa !
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aFter e show went amk MOS BURGER.. cuz FJ wan eat her dinner... so we sat there chit chat.. Left at 11.25pm.. Reach home bout 12am... slpt at 2++am..
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Had a weird dream.. & i duno where's e link too.. so forget it.. cant type out e story..
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Mon sch at 9am.. noon going eat yum cha wit frenz... =)
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PRoject meetings on tue, wed & fri.. during break time... jy~...
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well.. sumtimes i juz want to sae out wat i'm unhappy wit..
den .. choose to shut mi.. so i shut myself.
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sInce dun bother.. y should i...?
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or am i juz " too over " ..?
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or am i having a split personality...
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am i faking a smile infront of them when i'm upset...?
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den i wait.
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i dun wan to b e 1st to ...

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** cuz i care. **

** cant handle mi..? watever. Tis is mi. **

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

We r so bo liaoz... haa.... they sae wan tad c who's jacket is e nicest....... LOL... okie.. to sae 1st.. i dun realli like PINK.. but den.. haa... is a gift.. so i stil will wear... hee.. xD


pic veri blur... my phone spoilt liaoz... zZ.. =(



i duno y my eyes r gone ! haa... jialat...! We r holding e models of e teeth..

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Project works r starting soon~... i hate it ! zZ...
I was quite worry... sianz...
I started to dislike studying....
haiz...
i alw seems so tired when comes to study...
how to study degree or adv dip nx time...?
stil tot of going overseas study.. mayb few yrs later..?
how to cope lidat... zZ...
i dun like to plan...
i cant get to slp well..
i look like a ghost recently..
pale..
dark rings...
no blood circulation lidat..
zZ..

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i tin i going sign up at AH... i tin... i tin.... okie.. wait for weekends... i'll check e website 1st..

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My attitude.. like shit.
Again.
Forget it.
Juz ignore mi.

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*** i wan to buy shoes.. ***

*** i'm waiting for tat toopid pay to b in ! ArGh.. ***

*** i'm broke ! i spent so much on eating ! zZ.. ***

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

Oh ya.. haa.. tis pic.. taken by zS.. they sae from far we look alike.. abit lah.. i oso duno where we look alike man... haa !! den FJ sae: "xiang wo bu hao mehz... mei okie~... " haaa ! OMG.. she alw sae tis kind of tins lah~~~... wahahah~.. ya lah mei la mei la... LOL ! zsd... xD
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i see my skin i sianz man.. haa.. can c dark dark lidat.. den upper pt of e arm is fair... zZ.... so nan kan ! den aro my shoulder area... more Worst... ! one patch of dark shit on it... aRw............................... more er ! haa... zsd... now i veri nu li de apply whitening lotion at nite... haa! oopS...! =x

- My eyes so sleepy type... zZ... haa ! zsBL... -

- Stil trying to find remedies... haiz... sad man.. ! tsk ! -

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

haIya... i was thinking should i get bonded not.. zZZ... though i'm attached to SGH.. but den it was quite far.. alw took bout 1hr to reach there... haiYOZ.. if work morning shift i hav to wake up veri early... zZ... i sure late de lorz.. sumore become SN stil need to reach 30min early lehz... haiyOZ.. how can ! haa..
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Den if i choose AH.. which is near my hse.. i mean when 2009.. it will b at yis.. juz walking distance... nice rite... but den... i duno how's e hospital like... Arw............. so sianz de... zZ...
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Anyway after i graduate i stil hav to b in tis career mah.. so get e bond is extra $$ for mi.. which i need it now ! haa.. cuz i wan to shop !! aR............................... =x
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But my parents told mi tat it's not necessary to b bonded lah.. cuz im not in need of $$$ now.... sumore later if i change my mind den how.... haa... haiYOZ... so irritating man... if i'm attached to TTS jiu hao le.. den i will choose TTS lah.. kns... now dunO wat to do.. so mah fan de... zZ...
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How... !! ??
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CGH... hmmz... it's at TAmp there.. which mean i can tad 969 to tamp & den change to bus 10... i tin it oso tad bout 1hr or ++ to reach... is e same as SGH lorz... sumore i dun like to tad bus... cuz when it's too crowded.. cant get into e bus... meaning.. LATE LIAOZ ! ar....................
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so.... 1st choice is AH.. cuz is near (2009).. 2nd choice is SGH.. cuz i already noe how e hospital like.. is easier to work.. 3rd choice is CGH lorz... zZZ...
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My dad suggest AH (2009) .. cuz is near.. dun hav to wake up so early.. can save transport $$.. i oso tot of it.. not bad... but now e hospital is at clemeti there or queentown there ..?! quite far uh... haa... i'm trapped... i duno how........... arw................... =x
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help~.... pple~.. anY comments or suggestions or sumtin...?
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erggzzzZ..............

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I watched wild hogs wit darling yester... haa ! comedy show... not bad lah... #1 in US i tin.. haa.... in spore i duno lah... but quite alot of pple watch tis movie de... xD

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2dae was supposed to join FJ & her cousin de... but i too tired & lazy to go out le.. so 2dae stay at home rot ba... tml sch at 8am ! haiz... zz... end at 5pm ! as if i'm working office hrs.. so tiring lidat.. tin i will doze off during lecture.... Oh~.....................

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**** Wat shall i do.. ****

**** i'm slacking... zZ.. ****

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

I wan to shorten my fringe.
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I wan to make my face more fairer.
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I wan to buy tops.
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I wan to buy bottoms.
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I wan to buy sandals.
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I wan to buy lens.
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I wan to be _ _ _ _ _ .
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Shhhhhhhhh....
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My goal for tis year. Haa.. Jy !
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I need to save $. Yes.
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Hope i success. haa..

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* I dun care wat others say.. as long as i like. *

* Mixed blood is nice. woot~... *

* Wan mei xing nan.. haa ! *

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

hmMZ.. i found out sumtin... in class stil gt pple love mi... lolx... i exist in tis world.
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Yester my class was choosing.. voting for pple to b assistant leader & treasurer....
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so everyone can vote for anyone..
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den my name appear on e whiteboard..
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3votes...
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class gt 24 pple i tin..
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haa...
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good enough..
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i'm so happy.. =)
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but lucky lah.. cuz i oso dun wan b wat leader tin..
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if my grp all vote mi...
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i sure kena one..
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cuz total will b 7 votes for mi le...
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Phew! thk god.. ah bo sure mah fan de.. haa.. ooPS...!
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anyway.. tis shows tat i'm..... hmmz.. ya.. u noe~.. haa ! xD

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oh ya.. congrats to Fong juan, yinshan & yishing.. e top 3 in class ! hee... all e top 3 in our gang.. haa ! =)

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** Tiring dae tis week... reach hm oli after 9pm tis 3 daes ! my eyes r stil dry like duno wat.. zZZ.. **

** i wan to watch e foreign bodies dances tml ! haa.. **

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

2dae..
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tiring dae..
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my eyes r veri dry..
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zZZ..
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i feel so sianz...
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i feel irritated...
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i feel low....
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i shouted.
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i yelled.
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i joked.
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i kept quiet.
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i smiled.
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i cried.
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i'm mixed.
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* The. Heart. My. Heart. I. had. ----[no]. heart.---- *

* i. need. help. *

* hugz. for. mi. *

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

WATEVER LAH ! aRGH............................................................

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i feel so.........

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i'm not happy.. i'm not happy.. i'm not happy.. i'm not happy... i'm not happy... i'm not happy !

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sum1 pls..? lent a shoulder..?

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reach hm.. mum nagged.. i feel so tired... i hate tat.. i kept silent.. i dun wanna shout or anytin.. i feel so irritated... haiz... they start to nag at mi recently......

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am i a bad gal.. ? some1 who dun hav any responsibilities for my stuffs or anytin... sumtime i juz forget.. juz remind mi in a nice tone.. cant they..?? ( as in keeping my stuffs.. etc. )

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or am i one who learn to b out at all time & reach hm oli after 12am..?! okie.. fined !! i kept quiet... quiet.... ... sob.

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sumtime i realli wonder... am i realli tat bad.. or watever shit........ i wasnt too much.. am i...? aiYa.. i duno lah.. 2dae i wasnt in good mood either... zZ.. how to hide..? juz temporary...

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sumtimes.. sumhow.. feel tat no one cares bout mi.. (devil said. )

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* i dun wan e worst tin of my life tat i'm so so afraid of..... to happen......... my world will collapse.... juz lidat... realli... it's alw in my mind.. it comes..& go away.. & comes back agian... *

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* sumtimes..... realli sad. =x *
* ar.. nvm lah.. keep quiet.. if i say it out.. wat's e use..? tis does not matter bout e verbalisation.. but e heart. Get it..? *
* Alrite... enough. i'm juz in bad mood, pple. *
* Hope e bond is alw there. No change. *

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

To my baby :
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Ur alw mine. I love u. Muack~.. happy u & me. =)
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aR............ 2dae went escape... e weather.. too gd liaoz.. n i become roasted...! i mean e 4 of us... haa ! realli HOT man ! sweat like hell oso... like e sweat is free flow de... zsd.. haa.. i'm dark again.....! soB~...... i took how long to become fairer.. now oli one dae.. i'm dark dark DARK AGIAN.......... = l

QSW...... so xun ar....! i muz jy to become fair agian.. haa ! if not too dark not nice ! pple sae i look like malay... =x

& my legs... gt so many mosquitoes bites... not nice de... eeeeekkkkk......... all e dark spot.... Argh..................... oli few daes.. y am i so tyco !!! aRgh........... qi si le !! tsk ! lolx.. zsd..... = l

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Sch tml~ ! zZZ... so early... haven buy book oso... OMG... 9am class... haiz... sianz ar.........!
i'm lazy le !! help~... =x

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** i'm loving .. haa.. **

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

Yester went eat at lao beijing... ps there.. haa.. not bad.. nice nice.. but expensive ! =x
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After eating went MOS BURGER chit chat.... i'm so so tired & sleepy...! haa... my eyes become smaller n smaller.. zZZ.... den bout 10+++pm tad train home..


who's is who's... hee... tat big monster hand ! so scary.. haa !!



mi & juan.. e pic so blur.. haa.. no licence....

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2dae staY at home & rot...! rain & rain.... zZZ....

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2 more daes..... sch life starts agian~.. *yaWn*.. LOL !

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Sundae.. Escape..? no rain pls.

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* sLp & sLp... *

* eat & eat.. *

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

Super tired... zzZZ... it's raining heavily now.. realli wanna slp ! panda laizo..! so obvious.. so er.. !! later stil going out wit frenz to hav dinner at ps..
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juZ back from chalet... wen k ge.. den........... omg ! went cycling.. whole body ache like hell... old liaoz.. LOL.. juz a little exercise ache here n there.. Zsd... sumore i gt mosquitoes bites~! argh~!!!
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hmmz.. plan to b back hm yester.. but need help fren celebrate birthdae.. den too rush lah.. zsd.. haa ! so we hav pizza for dinner ! wheeeeee....... veri full.........................!! lol.. =)
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sCh starting soon~... gt 8am class !!! argh..... oso gt 7pm class !! argh..... DEAD.
LOL...

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** i'm too buz ... **

** i'm too tired to go out too. Spare mi ! LOL ! **

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

toT of going m'sia 2dae... but den.... passport expired le !! ar.......................................... zZZ.....
nvm.. c when free den go renew lorz.. bo bian... zZZ... so mah fan....! tsk !

later going out wit fren to buy tins...

already planned wat to buy when go m'sia.. last min chu pattern... argh........ pig ! shit ! LOL ! zsd.......

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slowly... i will go & figure out how to ..... & change myself.

i try~.. =)

jy~!

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*** i need to check it out ! ***

*** hope i can. ***

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

sUmtime.. i tin tat it's really unfair.... =(
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i'm not gifted.
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or maybe cuz of...... ownself.
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guess i have to put in effort to get wat i wan.
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i try~..

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where's my hong kong trip..?

no promises..?!

fined !

forget it.

i hate it.

all i get is..

disappointment.

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Quick.. 23rd aug.. [pray pray] .. i wanna go enjoy wit my dear frenZ~..

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*** Leave mi alone.. i go alone. ***

*** Tat's my choice. ***

*** 17yrs of my life. shit it.***

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

wheeeeeeeee............ haa !! yester last dae of attachment !! heh heh !! so happy.. cuz all of us r so tired~.. we all r like so crazy yester ! we took photos wit CI.. but not yet uploaded.. cuz is wit my fren.. mayb other time den upload.. e morning shift pple r going hm at 3pm ! & we..??! 9pm !! HMMPH !
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toopID MAureen stil purposely sae: " aiYA.. i wan go hm liaoz... eh.. u stil gt 6hr to go ar..??! aiYOz... haa !! " zsd !! tsk !! i wan to kill her !! LOL !
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We r so slack there.. cuz too many students le.. so sum were like standing there nth to do de... zZZ... gt e yr 3 & e yr 2 de there too... counting dw e time.. whahaha~... but e yr 3 seems stress... haa.. they need pass report.. zZZ.. haiYOz.. i scare yr3 oso.... ar..............................
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actually we quite happy lah.. den crap while work... LOL.. cuz last dae mah~... hee... bought chocolate for CI... hmmz... 16 students... LOL !
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CRazy lex stil sae wan ask all pt to press for call bell at 8.59pm sharp den we all run & sign out let e SN buz..!! LOL !!! siaoz !!!! but den he didnt lah ! i bet he dun dare too.. wahaaha~...!



Denise & mi... we alw go slack 2gether.. one tat i can click wit..



mi & rafta... we oso siaoz siaoz de lah~! click click ! hee..

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So happy when fren sae i'm one tat she can click wit.. wun b tat boring.. haaa ! so if gt any prob.. i will b her listener ! LOL ! ooPS.. xD

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okie~.. now they all noe i'm those crazy type de.. alw feng feng dian dian de.. wahahah... all gt trick by mi for e 1st week attachm.... lol... sae mi is a joker... not so lah actually.. haa! crazy~..

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2dae.. not going out.. stay at home rot~... cuz sat, sun, mon, tue, wed going out !! OMG ~! haa.. so buz uh~.... duno gt go m'sia not... hmmz.... waiting for reply~...

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*** Eye contact.. e way to attract man.. LOL ! sum1 teach mi~... woot... ***

*** CLICK... i wanna watch e reap ! any one? ***

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;

2 more weeks~.............................................. yes yes !! hee... xD

i mean sch reopen lah~.......... haa...

hope no 8am class... if not sianz.... zZZ....

yeah~ 3more daes b4 attachment finish~... wheeeee.......... =)

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Went clarke wit baby yester... den i realise gt a new shopping centre~... haa !! not bad uh... sum shops not yet open.... have my dinner... korea cuisine.... OMG... Spicy~... haa... i had a hard time finishing it..... oh-ouh............ hot hot !! LOL !

story teller too. haa... "she's e man"... heh heh ! xD

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2dae.. was supposed to do dressing... wat.. they sae wound flushing... end up prepare all e tins in trolley liaoz... den guess wat !?! weNt to pt bed & exposed e wound... stil gt bandage on it.. bandage til like e wound veri big.... wah~... i stil tinking how am i going to flush... wah lao.. end up open already... e wound realli veri BIG lorz.. til i cant c anytin.... LOL !! we at there keep laugh... it's oli a needle poke lidat... can oso sae is like ant bite lidat... one small dot there.. kaoz.. den they duno bandage til like duno wat.. kns... LOL ! waste my time man ! pt oso at there laugh... LOL ! OMG... wat a JOKE...... haa..... waste dressing set... zsd.. ! tsk !! den i stil ask pt where's e wound... funny lorz.. he oso duno... zsd ! A&E so exaggerate for wat...?! LOL ! crazy ~...

time realli fly fast tis morning~... hee.. =)

i veri tired.. doze off in mrt... nod here & there... zZZ... bought a gift for baby boy.. i like e cap.. e shirt.. haa ! one set de.. hee... =)
tis sat.... yeah~ !

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** missing sum1.. **

 - You are like milk and im the coffee..-
You make me sweet~. ;